Then maybe she should be the one telling me she knows what it's like.
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
While you and the dead boyfriend I had once can get wine coolers and make a day out of it.
[ it does, actually, occur to him that he's being a massive prick to one of his closest friends, and after he sends the messages, there's a pause, in which he'd like to immediately retract them. ]
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
I'm sorry. [ he wants to write something about it being a difficult topic, but all of what comes to mind seems like a stupid excuse. he's still wrapped up in selfish bitterness, maybe jealousy, even, but there's a sincere kind of love he has for his friend. one of the few willing to stick with him through all of his bad traits, and moments of being a generally terrible human being. ]
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
If the both of you are still breathing, when you get home, take her and leave. It's better than any of the alternatives.
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Then maybe she should be the one telling me she knows what it's like.
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
While you and the dead boyfriend I had once can get wine coolers and make a day out of it.
[ it does, actually, occur to him that he's being a massive prick to one of his closest friends, and after he sends the messages, there's a pause, in which he'd like to immediately retract them. ]
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
I'm sorry. [ he wants to write something about it being a difficult topic, but all of what comes to mind seems like a stupid excuse. he's still wrapped up in selfish bitterness, maybe jealousy, even, but there's a sincere kind of love he has for his friend. one of the few willing to stick with him through all of his bad traits, and moments of being a generally terrible human being. ]
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
If the both of you are still breathing, when you get home, take her and leave. It's better than any of the alternatives.
FROM: benjamin.jonathan@cdc.org
Just do it, don't look back.