[If this is anything, it's proof that she sees them as family and not simply as guardsmen or friends. Lucy truly cares about their opinions.]
I have made a terrible mess of everything-
Toby [the man who just showed up at Athos' window one night] had been so courteous,and kind, and flirtatious, I thought that surely he was-
[She stops speaking. She feels stupid and embarrassed enough.]
He is Dorian Gray's lover. And I went to try and find out if they were making a mockery of me, and he was rude and distasteful and presumptuous, and I-
no subject
[If this is anything, it's proof that she sees them as family and not simply as guardsmen or friends. Lucy truly cares about their opinions.]
I have made a terrible mess of everything-
Toby [the man who just showed up at Athos' window one night] had been so courteous,and kind, and flirtatious, I thought that surely he was-
[She stops speaking. She feels stupid and embarrassed enough.]
He is Dorian Gray's lover. And I went to try and find out if they were making a mockery of me, and he was rude and distasteful and presumptuous, and I-
He did not touch me.