They don't have a right to anything. I know right now you might think it's bad, but trust me. I've been through bad things. There's a lot of good that comes from the bad.
FROM: talbot.hanna@cdc.org
I wouldn't have met you if we both weren't dragged into this.
I know, but that doesn't mean I wasn't stupid to get drawn into this in the first place. If I'd asked questions instead of rushing in blindly, I wouldn't be here.
[ Or so he thinks. The truth is, they'd probably have found a way to force him anyway. It's far easier to blame himself, though. ]
They're vague on purpose. These people aren't nice people. Nothing would've changed. They wanted us, and they would've found a way to get us.
FROM: talbot.hanna@cdc.org
D'Artagnan, please stop blaming yourself. Stop shouldering these burdens. They're not all yours, they're ours too, or maybe no one's.
FROM: talbot.hanna@cdc.org
This isn't you anymore. It's us. It's everyone. No one knows the truth, and that's why we're here. Not because we didn't ask questions, but because we didn't get the answers.
[ He doesn't answer right away, but thinks about that. After a moment he sighs, and runs his hands though his hair. ]
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
Maybe you're right. I think I'd like you to be.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
It doesn't matter now. All I care about is making sure the people who matter to me stay safe. If I can't promise anything else, maybe I can manage that.
[ It's the only form of honour left to him, after all. ]
You will. You'll do that and more. You don't see it but I do.
FROM: talbot.hanna@cdc.org
I make bad choices, but I make really great ones too. It's my choice to trust you and believe in you, and you have to believe me when I tell you you're going to be great.
[ He doesn't know what to say to that, how to answer it.
There's so much he hasn't told her. So much that's been left unsaid. Chief among them, that there's a woman back in France that he can't be with, but he's fairly sure he's still in love with. That he's too afraid that Hanna's trust and belief come from feelings that aren't trust or belief, and that he doesn't actually deserve any of the three.
More than he thinks he is? She deserves better than what he's giving her.
He doesn't answer, in the end. He lets it lie, and he'll keep her words close even while they make him feel guilty for not telling her what he left behind. ]
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They don't have a right to anything. I know right now you might think it's bad, but trust me. I've been through bad things. There's a lot of good that comes from the bad.
FROM: talbot.hanna@cdc.org
I wouldn't have met you if we both weren't dragged into this.
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I know, but that doesn't mean I wasn't stupid to get drawn into this in the first place. If I'd asked questions instead of rushing in blindly, I wouldn't be here.
[ Or so he thinks. The truth is, they'd probably have found a way to force him anyway. It's far easier to blame himself, though. ]
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They're vague on purpose. These people aren't nice people. Nothing would've changed. They wanted us, and they would've found a way to get us.
FROM: talbot.hanna@cdc.org
D'Artagnan, please stop blaming yourself. Stop shouldering these burdens. They're not all yours, they're ours too, or maybe no one's.
FROM: talbot.hanna@cdc.org
This isn't you anymore. It's us. It's everyone. No one knows the truth, and that's why we're here. Not because we didn't ask questions, but because we didn't get the answers.
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FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
Maybe you're right. I think I'd like you to be.
FROM: dartagnan@cdc.org
It doesn't matter now. All I care about is making sure the people who matter to me stay safe. If I can't promise anything else, maybe I can manage that.
[ It's the only form of honour left to him, after all. ]
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You will. You'll do that and more. You don't see it but I do.
FROM: talbot.hanna@cdc.org
I make bad choices, but I make really great ones too. It's my choice to trust you and believe in you, and you have to believe me when I tell you you're going to be great.
FROM: talbot.hanna@cdc.org
You're more than you think you are.
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There's so much he hasn't told her. So much that's been left unsaid. Chief among them, that there's a woman back in France that he can't be with, but he's fairly sure he's still in love with. That he's too afraid that Hanna's trust and belief come from feelings that aren't trust or belief, and that he doesn't actually deserve any of the three.
More than he thinks he is? She deserves better than what he's giving her.
He doesn't answer, in the end. He lets it lie, and he'll keep her words close even while they make him feel guilty for not telling her what he left behind. ]